Are you tired of yourself?

Some days I just blow it. I do. Usually, for me, it's my big mouth that opens and something flies out that I wish had just stayed in my head. Ugh! Does that happen to you? I get so frustrated with myself because I know that I've hurt someone's feelings... so I apologize. I've even been known to realize I said something stupid, call the friend to apologize and them laugh and tell me that they weren't offended at all... but I'd rather apologize when they think it unnecessary than not and them be hurt or angry. If calling my friend to admit that I said something I shouldn't have said isn't uncomfortable enough, then comes the part that I used to really hate. Then I have to go to God and ask for forgiveness for my mouth... AGAIN. Some days I don't even want to bother because I know I'm just going to have to come back and do it all over again the NEXT time I say something stupid. Some days I'm so tired of myself and just wish I could get it right for a change.

One day I was talking with Madeline about God as our Creator. I tell ya, I just hope that my kids learn as much through my discipling them as I do! Our verse that day was Psalm 104:9:

You set a boundary they cannot cross; never again will they cover the earth.

When I read it that day I was reminded of something I heard in a message by Curtis Jones. I told Madeline that every day... all day... at the beach... the waves come in and they come to a certain spot and then God tells them to go back out... then they come back to that spot and God tells them to go back out... and it happens over and over and over... all day... everyday. God has given the waves a boundary and without His permission, they cannot cross.

In what I should expect from my daughter because she ALWAYS does this, she asked a great question.

"Mom, do you think God gets tired of telling the waves to go back?"

"No, Honey." I said, "When God created the waves, He knew that He would have to tell them to go back all day every day... just like when he created us, He knew that he would have to forgive us over and over again."

Honestly, it came out of my mouth before it really registered to me what I was saying.

When.God.created.us.He KNEW.that.he.would.have.to.forgive.us.
over.and.over.and over.

I get all frustrated with myself and my loose lips but God... He knew that I'd be coming to Him for forgiveness and He doesn't get frustrated at all. Why would He? He made me and He, above anyone else, knows me.

As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him; for he knows how they were formed, he remembers that they are dust. Psalm 103:13-14

Do you ever get frustrated with yourself? Like me, do get down on yourself because you just can't seem to get it right and have to ask for forgiveness for the same thing over and over and over again? Well, God is not down on you nor is He frustrated that you've come back to him AGAIN for forgiveness. Before He created you He knew that this would be the case... just like He knew that each day He would send the ocean waves back out to sea... and He created you anyway and Psalm 18 says the He delights in you!

So, when you mess up again, remember the comforting words of Romans 5:8:

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

God didn't wait for us to get it right. He knows that we cannot. on our own. accomplish that task. It is only through the death and resurrection of Jesus that we are made right.


Are you tired of yourself?

Do you think God must be tired of you too?

I don't think so.... in fact, He delights in you!